Moving in a new direction again.

I feel so silly doing this, I'm going to put that out there right in the beginning. It's just that I realized something last week that has had me stumped and unable to communicate online because the thing is, I just don't do it right.

I am never going to be a blogger.

I've had five months to make something of myself with the time that I have and I haven't done anything because I've felt stuck in a rut and pressured to be something that I am not - I am reaching toward the wrong goals and the wrong people. I've just been reaching for all the wrong things and I just need to start over. Again. Again. I'm always starting over again.